Musings From Sophie

Meeting David Bowie

There are people who bring up the question of who are we and why do we matter. When I heard David Bowie for the first time, the sun was pouring onto the living room floor like batter, and you were sitting next to the victrola, looking at an album cover, “Changes One”. I was nine. I was drawn into the room by his voice. The purity of that moment is astounding to me now. I was over whelmed with curiosity and also aversion because his music was a little strange. And then when I saw his picture I died of love.

I didn’t like your taste in music that much, you liked rock n roll girl singers and I only liked boys, but there you were, cross legged, listening to the album you bought, and there was I, discovering a connection to the world I wanted to be from.

I listened to David Bowie in headphones and looked at his picture every day and night for the next five years. I imagined I was there, and I learned all the parts that made up the whole without being a musician. On summer vacation I sat in one chair all day every day listening to David Live and picturing the shows.

I was able to hear through him. When I started playing African drums at fourteen I already had a vision of myself as an artist, I had to learn the physical way to get my music out, but I had developed a true sense on my own world.

I loved David Bowie because he helped me. He helped me connect and have confidence in my own existence.

When I was coat checking at Orso in New York, the same job where Marc Cohn ‘discovered me’ and left my demos to be found by a producer at a jingle house,  David Bowie came in for dinner. He leaned into my window as if it were a mirror and said, “How does my lipstick look?”

Years later I met him and his enchanting wife, Iman, with my friend Rosie. We had dinner and another time went to a show. I laughed so much at the dinner, I was like a nine year old, and I hugged him the next time we met at the show. I realized, though he was kind about it, that he didn’t know me the way I felt comfortable with him. I hugged him because I wanted to thank him. I felt I may have stepped over a boundary, and I was embarrassed at the time, but now I’m glad I did it.

The following Winter I was living in London working on my second album, “Whaler”, and Rosie called to say David and Iman invited us to join them in Belize for Christmas. I was too shy. I wanted to go, but I was too damn insecure.

It is sad to me now that the artist who most affected me, the person I day dreamed of meeting and being friends with for almost my whole childhood, offered me the chance to just be myself around him, and I was too scared to accept it.

I wonder who will transform my children’s lives? I wonder if I’ll get to witness that moment, I wonder if I’ll recognize the connection. I hope my son and daughter will call me someday and say something like, “You’ll never guess who I met today!!!!!! And I’m going to their house for Christmas!!!!!!” And I will remember the graciousness Of Iman and David Bowie and feel so happy that my children have the confidence to fully live their dreams.

That’s how I imagine David Bowie. As a boy determined to turn his mind inside out on a quest for his own truth, his own reality, his own creativity.

One thought on “Meeting David Bowie

  1. Keith says:

    Hello there, I’m Keith.
    Truly I’m sorry because I’m not sure where I am here. Here, now, is 8:04pm April 26, 2016. Eastern Seaboard of Australia.
    This morning, I discovered a Sophie B. Hawkins song called “Before I walk on Fire.”
    I’ll be honest, I’d not heard that song previous to this morning. But I’ve heard it more than one hundred times since.
    I’m 56 years old, and soon to be divorced for the second time, and truly struggling with life. Honesty is the recipe for today.
    I’ve driven over 1200 miles in the last two days and listened to Sophie tracks the entire time. But I swear to you now, I was astonished with the effect that “Before I walk on Fire” has had on me.
    I’m not sure if Sophie herself reads these comments, because as I said earlier, I’m a little unsure of where I am here (on this site) but if someone who knows Sophie could ask her…….. WHAT……..was she thinking when she wrote the words to that song?
    Sophie………. How do you write lyrics like…. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for being scared?
    This is astonishing. Truly. After I worked out simply by playing the song over and over in my car what those lyrics were……. I teared up a little whilst still driving my car. I thought….shit, what’s going on here, but I had to keep driving. As previously stated here. Today’s recipe is honesty.
    I’d been driving all day today, and I simply HAD to reach my destination. When I DID reach it, I selected Park, secured the hand brake, and burst into tears.
    Sophie, what is going on darling?
    What are you attempting here? by turning an outwardly intelligent, articulate man like myself into a blubbering fool by writing words like that?
    Darling, what was in your mind when you penned those words? I really need to know this. Truly I do. This is gonna bug me forever if I don’t get to the bottom of this.
    How much of what you write, is from personal expeience? Is this TOO personal of me (a stranger) to ask someone such as yourself?
    I’m being honest with you Soph, what do you say?
    And if you DO find the words from personal experience, how do you stay (outwardly) unaffected when you sing those particular songs that appear to be…… close to your heart? Our, or at least MY heart is the most precarious part of my (our) entire being. MY heart, (My lord, my heart’s been broke a thousand times, it gets broken practically every day. sigh)
    Please reply, Keith.

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